Many of us hope to see a miracle the moment we pray. We long for God to intervene quickly, especially when the situation feels urgent. But through my own journey, I have come to understand that God often works in ways and in timing we do not expect.
When my son was diagnosed, our hearts were desperate for a miracle. As Christians, we pursed every avenue of faith that we know. We went to church faithfully every Sunday. During every communion taking, we declared and claimed healing over him as pastors speaking. We invited serval pastors to come to the hospital and lay their hands on my son, prayed over him at his bedside. We even attended a healing event at our church, believing that God could touch him there.
But despite all our efforts, nothing seemed to change. His condition remained the same, and I found myself asking God why?!
It wasn’t until 2022 that something shifted in my heart as Jesus Himself came and had blessed me with a private lesson for 9 months’ time… Long story short, I came across a teaching by Pastor John Osteen about the Law of Faith. Through that message, God began to open my eyes- showing me that faith is not simply about activity or emotion, but about standing firm on His Word, trusting His timing, and believing even when we cannot yet see.
This understanding became a turning point in my life…
When we were told that there was an extremely high chance my son would die on the operating table, my world fell into complete darkness. The first miracle God has given us had been a light and keeping me alive (I wanted to commit suicide when my son was diagnosed) guiding me through the years, a reminder of His faithfulness. Yet in 2022, everything we were facing felt as though it had dragged us all the way back to the day of his diagnosis. It was as if every step forward had suddenly vanished.
The fear was overwhelming- so real and so heavy, because we were confronted with the possibility that we might have to say goodbye to our boy. In that moment, it felt as though the weight of grief was pressing in from every side, and all I could do was cling to God with the depleted strength I had left, because I knew only Jesus can safe my son’s life.
I’ve learnt from God that we are actually in a battle, and we must fight the good fight of faith. Miracles don’t happen automatically just because we sing songs about God performs miracle.